Amni and Eczema

Ramadhan sudah sampai di penghujung. Tahun ni bulan ramadhan tidak seperti tahun-tahun yang lepas. Diduga dengan anak yang sakit adalah sesuatu yang menguji tahap kesabaran. Alhamdulillah ada keluarga yang banyak membantu. I'm blessed amni have so many people yang care for her.

Bila Amni dilahirkan, little did i know she will have eczema. Sebagai bayi yang dilahirkan cukup sempurna (alhamdulillah), sedih hati bila find out later that she will suffer with this. I know she's not comfortable with her body. Amni akan selalu mengaru-garu muka atau bahagian badan yang gatal. Kadang-kadang sampai berdarah.

Eczema amni bermula semasa umur dia 7 bulan. It appear on her chick first. At first we thought it was milk rashes because she's breastfeeding but unfortunately the doc have confirmed it's eczema. Alhamdulillah her eczema still a mild one, but its sad looking at her scratching her body.

Lately her eczema seems worst. Kalau dulu appear kat pipi die je. Now it almost at all her body. Every night sebelum nak tidur dia akan menggaru-garu muka, badan. Kadang-kadang sampai berdarah. We try to do everything we can to stop her from scratching, tapi dia akan mengamuk. I know dia tak selesa. At one point, I cry sebab tak tahan tengok dia macam tu.

Now kami tengah cuba cari as much as information as we can to cure her eczema. Actually eczema ni tak boleh diubati but we can control it. Di facebook we join Natural Healing Asthma Allergic Eczema (NHAAE), banyak maklumat disitu. We try our best to use natural product now sebab too many chemical will effect her later. Sentiasa berdoa dalam hati one day she will be like before.

Mungkin menjaga amni bukan seperti menjaga kanak-kanak normal yang lain. We must do extra care because dia tak boleh berpeluh, perlu pantang makan and many more. Maybe there are many things we cant do. Maybe perjalanan kami raise our kids takkan sama dengan other parents. It's ok, u know. Bila jadi macam ni I found that semakin hari semakin sayang pada amni. I will do anything for her. Will do anything to make her happy. I'm not going to take any granted about her life. It's change the way I view my life. Like my husband said, Allah menguji untuk kita lebih dekat dengan DIA. After all, masih bersyukur kerana  ada orang lain yang lebih teruk diuji.

InsyaAllah. Berdoa she will be a healthy happy girl one day. She's a very special to us. At young age macam-macam sakit dia dah rasa. She's a strong little girl. Ibu know amni, ibu know you are so special yang Allah kurniakan pada kami.

Happy eid aidilfitri to all. Maaf salah silap.